Drop off went better yesterday with me taking NHL. Problem is we didn’t know if it was me taking him, his OT being there, his real teacher being there or something else.
Things did not repeat this morning. My heart was ripped from my chest and is broken. I sit here trying to stop tears as I relive the horrifying screams and cries NHL just did this morning.
When NHL and I arrived we went in the same door since we were never given officiial alternate plans. Once down the hall only the assistant teacherr was there and he started to panic and ask for his teacher. The panic quickly escalated to screams, crying, and all out hysterics. The assistant teacher took his hand and he started to kick and clutch for me, I quickly left and felt like a heartless bitch.
You need to realize I never dropped NHL off before. Daddy did since he worked next to daycare. i never had to witness this EVER and I don’t want to again.
JL just told me that this morning while getting ready NHL told him he didn’t like his teacher. JL asked who and he said the assistant teacher. This morning was also the first day that he didn’t rush out of bed to get ready. He actually said to me "I don’t want to go to school"
I just wish I could get into his little mind and see what was whirling around in there. Hopefully he rebounds from this morning and has a decent day. The not eating lunch, the refusing to use the bathroom and horrible drop offs really worry me. In all honesty I think his reaction would be like this to any new school. He left his comfort zone of 3 years and this is tough.
Off I go to cry and comfort and comfort JSL.